So a guy gets his degree in the denominational biases of his denomination. He gets a formal paid position at a church. He pastes on a big fake smile after lecturing people for a half hour on Sunday.
This is what most pastors are.
This is not the life of God.
This is not anything anyone should look up to.
Why are people looking up to pastors and teachers anyway?
These are people with the identical struggles and fears and doubts that you have. No different at all. The only thing that they’re doing that you are not is teaching you from the Word of God the very same things they themselves need to believe and obey.