There is something that I have noticed in people (and in myself, duh!*) that is, by far, the most terrifying thing I have ever seen.
It is unforgiveness and resentment.
Doesn’t sound that bad, does it?
But it is: unforgiveness and resentment are enough to destroy your very soul.
This is God-awful terrifying, and oppressive, and overwhelming.
This is the worst thing I can think of.
I can think of three people from my life, all now dead, who were the most miserable people I have ever met (other than myself, years ago—the link to my story is below).
The one, a woman, I knew through working as a CNA. The deadness, anger, negativity, unforgiveness, and resentment in what little was left of her soul are beyond the power of my words to adequately describe.
Once, I gave her a Bible, and she literally threw it in the trash right in front of me.
When I went to her funeral and saw her body in the casket, I am not trying to be funny, her personality did not seem to have changed.
Her resentment and evil, her presence, was awful to experience.
Two other people, old men, were the most angry, negative, miserable people. Always resentment coming out of their mouths.
All three of these people seemed to have the attitude that they had never sinned against anyone, but that many other people had sinned against them.
And then, of course, my own suicidal depression, brought on by my anger and unforgiveness and extreme resentment against those who had grievously sinned against me.
I am NOT talking about theory here!
In Matthew 18:32-35, God Himself promises to send “torturers” on people who do not forgive other people of all sins.
I have personally experienced this torture. It was called extreme fear, terrifying anxiety, soul-crushing despair, indescribable pain, and suicidal depression.
Some of us fools think we can can set ourselves up as the supreme judge of other people and hold their sins against them, ignoring our own sins that God has forgiven us.
But God will torment unbelievers forever in Hell for their sins.
And God will judge saved believers at the Great White Throne Judgment the for bad things they did, including the sins of unforgiveness and resentment.
Anger leads to unforgiveness, unforgiveness leads to resentment, resentment leads to terrifying painful, soul-crushing, “mental illness.”
This is the worst fate a human being can have on this earth, psychologically and spiritually.
Unforgiveness and resentment will grind your soul into Hell on Earth in screaming, suffocating horror far beyond the ability of your mind to now imagine.
A lot of times people think that others are negative, but really what they are is resentful and unforgiving.
Worldly people say that we need to “let go.”
I don’t believe that.
We need to forgive.
Time heals no one.
Only forgiveness heals the soul.
If we can’t forgive, then we need to go to God in Jesus Christ and get help through his Holy Spirit to forgive—because you cannot live without forgiving.
If you live in unforgiveness and resentment, the life that you live will be a burning seething Hell of torment, fear, anxiety, depression, and despair.
Unforgiveness and resentment in a person is awful beyond words to describe.
Only in forgiveness can you be healed and free.
Forgiveness is not divine only.
It is absolutely ~necessary~ for people to forgive, Christian or not, saved or not.
If you do not forgive, you cannot live and enjoy life.
I do not care one bit what anyone else has done to you. I don’t care how awful or painful or terrible it was: if you do not forgive them 100% and persistently, forgiving them over and over, continually, your life will be seething pile of burning soul wreckage FAR WORSE than the abuse done to you.
Unforgiveness and resentment eventually result in anger, fear, anxiety, depression, despair, and possibly suicide.
God, who has forgiven you 100% in Christ, will NOT allow you to peacefully and happily go around with resentment towards others, or even against any one person. See Matthew 18:32-35 and before.
If you forgive, you will have JOY, if you do not forgive, your life will be some level of HELL on earth.
I am 100% sure of this.
Forgive everyone of everything, everyday, no exceptions.
And have peace and joy.
May Jesus bless you with His love, and His total forgiveness, and His ongoing forgiveness.